"What about your friends will they stand their ground
Will they let you down yeah, yeah
What about your friends are they gonna be low down
Will they ever be around or will they turn their backs on you"
I haven't been here in awhile have I? and it looks as if blogsville has become ghost town. It's funny that I blog more when I'm in school than when I'm out of it and on holiday. Is it me, or those anyone get the feeling of being a blogsville virgin when they haven't posted anything up for ages? I'm quite nervous actually. I was going to update last week and I've been trying to type this out for about 72hrs now, I swear immediately I sit down, someone needs my help. I was going to write about my summer reads, Songs of Enchantment and The Thing around your neck by Ms Adichie( a must read if you ask me), but Man proposes and God disposes abi?
My birthday was last week around Wednesday or Thursday( It was such a busy and shitty day that we all forgot)and for the past ten years, my friend Michael would be the first to call,infact I didn't wish or need anybody else to call as long as he did...I'm going to be all over the place with this one so bear with me, I'm going somewhere(or at least I think so, lol)You never miss your water till the well runs dry you know, I was going to share with you people the wahala Michael and I were having but I never got around to it (yes I did, but Kem, Third world profashional and the rest of you thought stealers went ahead and posted on friendships)
About 6 moths ago, he called after one of his many mimi- odysseys and I told him point blank that I didn't want to be friends anymore, that I was tired of worryig and I had too much on my plate, there was no space to wonder about someone who was too irresponsible and disregarded the feelings of people who loved him. As far as I was concerned , this quest to find himself and God was taking a bit too long (How Ironic)
He laughed and told me he had been warning me since we were younger that my madness would manifest sooner rather than later and that it had finally come to pass(see insult)Only Zena, he said would throw away a 10 year old child(our friendship)away. He kept on talking and talking (as he is prone to do) and after awhile, I hung up.
Our relationship has always been a strange one, When I'm sad, or anxious or I have good news to share, this boy would call me before I had a chance to say "I'm going to call this boy" (the boy uses jazz)
We consulted eachother before any major decisions, helped me overcome the death of a friend, words can't really describe the special bond we have. There are acquaintances, friends of convenience and then there are FRIENDS... When I need a word of encouragement or a prayer, I know he's there interceeding for me. But Zena, being the true human that I am, forgot about all that.
There's a proverb my people say, that you know the ones who love you when katakata(problems)is around, not when its all good and rosy. The trouble with my brother came, I lost my job and my scholarship....I was bitter, tired and quite frankly, that saying stuck with me and I started weeding out people one by one....in my mind, if they weren't here for me now, when would they be?
I called the he-goat, and stalked his skinny ass, but I was getting no response...that was when I decided to cut the whole thing off....I should've know love is stronger than pride....
Okay, honestly I'm tired of typing and I'm sure you're tired of reading, so I'll stop here, its 2:01 Am and my Aunt Chinwe and I have been sitting here bidding for Ab rocket on ebay, the horrible thing is from $5.00, the thing has gone to $40.00, I've told her we should stop and she's still swearing and screaming eziokwu!lol
Love your friends, or in my case Friend, forgive....don't let anger hold your heart, don't be afraid to tell people you love them, you're not flawless and neither are they
Bisous